y didnt i realise all this earlier?
y must i alwaes be the 1 getting played?
y am i alwaes the 1 getting hurt?
y cant i be happy for once in my lyfe?
y would i even give hym another chance?

i dont seem to learnt from experience
i kept getting myself stuck in the same old craps again & again.
ive been the nice & soft spoken type..
bt people step on my head tonnes of tymes..
& wen i became a frucking bytch..
people come & go as they wish..
make me feel unwanted.
& have thinking dat im being selfish..

i just dont get it..
dat particular dude realie wanted me to be with hym.
bt in the end..
hys the 1 disappearing from my lyfe..
hums..
if he were to contact me..
& blame me for everything..
is it even my fault?
i myslef dont knoe wad the answer will be.