i knoe its been awhile since i update.
im n0t in the m0od.
with everything out of c0ntr0l..
aggghhh!im c0nfuse..
i d0nt wanna cry..
& i d0nt wanna be the weak bytch nim0re.
ive been trying so hard to maintain dat smile on me.
i kn0e ppl ar0und me are helping me cheer up.
& dat includes -----.
talking b0ut -----........
during the sleep over.
i didnt fail to text hym.
okay yes im falling f0r hym.
& i kn0e im n0t suppose to.
but....aggghhh.im c0nfuse!!
as days g0 by..
hys msges states everything b0ut [cant state out].
i dunn0e wad else to d0.
i d0nt dare to hurt hym 0r hys feelings.
bl0odie hell.

i guess its my turn to go M.I.A.
need to find my way thru this.
i want to knoe the truth.