Monday, June 09, 2008 12:23:00 PM
currentlie in skewl!
im just n0t me t0dae.
stress over everithing maybe..
i dunn0e lars.
just cant c0ncerntrate anim0re.
isit because of me thinking t0 much b0ut hym or just f0rcing myself t0 do sumthing dat im n0t able to0?!
agghhh!dere can me hundreds & th0usands of questions..
but i cant even answer ani one of it..
wad am i supp0se to do n0w.
give up h0pe & let mem0ries be mem0ries.
OR
sh0uld i make myself feel fakelie happie wen im n0t?!
blankness in me.
this things had never g0ne this far bef0re.
usuallie im able t0 control my feelings way back.
but y this n0w.
i just cant live with this feelings f0rever in me.
ill just suff0cate with all kinds of pr0blems.
& maybe wad ila said was true.
if he was meant t0 be mine..he will be..
i gues hys just n0t myne huh.
wad ever it is lar.
i guess ill just live with this empty life..